Sometimes you just can't avoid a broken heart. It's funny how our parents tell us everyday not to get ourselves or somebody pregnant but they don't tell us the many other ways how we can get screwed up.
There are a lot of other kinds of pain other than our romantic heartbreak. People out there would hurt us inevitably, most especially and unfortunately, those people whom we really love. Family, friends, career, what we love to do, the things we are into. They're all gonna snap back on us from time to time.
I don't understand really all these feelings that are mixing up inside me. I always chose to be strong despite all the hardships. I know I have to be and I had to for the last 10 years of my life.
But you know, sometimes, you gotta give in to the pain. You gotta let it devour you. Just to check if you're still human, IF AM STILL HUMAN. It so sad that we always just choose to ignore what's hurting us and deprive ourselves from crying, lamenting, and questioning if things are really worth it. It is not so bad to hurt and be weak at one point in our lives. Don't we just envy these little children who don't lie with what they really feel? When they feel pain, they cry for and about it. When they get angry, they get furious without any hesitation. When they are disappointed, they show it like the rest of the world went down with them. Don't you just envy this kind of freedom? I do.
Right now, the only companion we have and the only thing we can turn to is this technology we have and we transmit all our feelings to it, hoping we can get the answers we are looking for, and hoping that it will make us feel better. But it's never ever gonna be better because no matter what we do, we still feel the same.
I feel sorry for myself because I got used to choosing the part where I am always strong, and nothing can bring me down. But it's hard to live this way. It's so hard especially when there are times that you just want to scream and let out all the anger in you. But then again, you are a strong person. Hold on to your damn old lie. It's not easy and i'ts never going to be because the people you love do not make it so easy for you. They have high expectations and they just want you to be the person THEY wanted you to be. The more you get close to their expectations, the more they make the standards higher. So,
...you're always not good enough. Never ever what ever you do. Never ever make a single mistake because it would mean mistakes you made all your life. It's always a make it or break it.
Sometimes you just can't avoid a broken heart. It's funny how our parents tell us everyday not to get ourselves or somebody pregnant but they don't tell us the many other ways how we can get screwed up.
There are a lot of other kinds of pain other than our romantic heartbreak. People out there would hurt us inevitably, most especially and unfortunately, those people whom we really love. Family, friends, career, what we love to do, the things we are into. They're all gonna snap back on us from time to time.
I don't understand really all these feelings that are mixing up inside me. I always chose to be strong despite all the hardships. I know I have to be and I had to for the last 10 years of my life.
But you know, sometimes, you gotta give in to the pain. You gotta let it devour you. Just to check if you're still human, IF AM STILL HUMAN. It so sad that we always just choose to ignore what's hurting us and deprive ourselves from crying, lamenting, and questioning if things are really worth it. It is not so bad to hurt and be weak at one point in our lives. Don't we just envy these little children who don't lie with what they really feel? When they feel pain, they cry for and about it. When they get angry, they get furious without any hesitation. When they are disappointed, they show it like the rest of the world went down with them. Don't you just envy this kind of freedom? I do.
Right now, the only companion we have and the only thing we can turn to is this technology we have and we transmit all our feelings to it, hoping we can get the answers we are looking for, and hoping that it will make us feel better. But it's never ever gonna be better because no matter what we do, we still feel the same.
I feel sorry for myself because I got used to choosing the part where I am always strong, and nothing can bring me down. But it's hard to live this way. It's so hard especially when there are times that you just want to scream and let out all the anger in you. But then again, you are a strong person. Hold on to your damn old lie. It's not easy and i'ts never going to be because the people you love do not make it so easy for you. They have high expectations and they just want you to be the person THEY wanted you to be. The more you get close to their expectations, the more they make the standards higher. So,
...you're always not good enough. Never ever what ever you do. Never ever make a single mistake because it would mean mistakes you made all your life. It's always a make it or break it.
I'm Gixx. I started this blog two years ago when I tried to go about my insanity through documenting my musings in the night. I am now 21, graduate, again studying in law school, and I am still floating and fleeting from my existence and unconventional personality and way of living.
I maintain at least five websites but this is where I write about anything random. I read a lot of books. I love travel and I'm a sucker for zeal and wisdom.
I like to take risks. And that's where I learn. Then I write.
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