He had no idea. In that one day I walked towards him, I set foot on my next prey.
His smell that reeks innocent goodness aggressively numbing my senses, in a manner I've never felt before.
This ungodly hunger, the thought of thousand things I can do to hurt him. I want, to slowly, passionately rip his skin respectfully tear every part of him, bathe in his blood for my youth and lay him on the fire of my vindication.
Like a psychopath's frenzy The detail of his misery imbued in my mind.
For he was the chosen retribution, Too fine for my own personal salvation.
Under these sheets, you were hovering
tightly around my body.
Burying your head
and smelling the grease in my hair,
lazy arms entwined over my breasts.
All of you pressed against my back
as if I were your muse or lover.
I was more than a stone, good as statue.
These displays weren't all too unfamiliar.
I've traipsed to others' bodies before
Unashamed, unfazed of indignity.
No feelings, for nobody else.
To no one, but my beautiful wretched self
I see myself embraced in lust
or love, I couldn't be sure of. I did not, never cared.
Empty, cold, hollowed with my self-damnation.
Not even for lust
Not even for sin.
I watch your eyes
beg for something,
anything.
But
kissing you,
fucking you,
Yes, and I'm almost almost done, just a little more tinkering around here and this will do. I spent almost two days working on this new blog.
This space will take much, well mostly, my more personal accounts. Sometimes I go haywire and when I do I end up writing some random rants or whines about whatever. Sometimes I go way more opinionated than usual and tries to get involve and express my sentiments on some issues most especially those social and political ones. I've gone more political recently because there was too much pressure around-that you have to be aware of the national issues to be labeled as a 'responsible' citizen or a 'useful' member of the youth. The youth now has become more aggressive and brave on voicing out their opinions but not being much accountable for everything they say. Just the perks are, they can say whatever they want, rant, even talkshit or trash talk other people or whoever celebrity or political persona. It's their choice if they do it logically or illogically, reasonably or go way overboard. However they want to put it. The thing is, at least, you're INVOLVED. But yeah if you do that, throw a more sensible, if not smart,judgement.
Most of the times, blogging saves me from bumming that has aready become a mortal sin because it's too much. I just realize that vacations increase the number of idle people like me. This also worsens the financial crisis because I tend to use the computer for countless hours. Talk about radiation and electric bill go double. Facebook would increase the probability of people to get cancer because of an everyday long exposure in front the screen. Just a theory. But I just learned that radiation from computers actually adds to your aging. So that's why I look more on twenties now? It even gets better if you have all these soda and junkies you put on your mouth everyday. So much for my healthy lifestyle eh?
Well at least, Justin Bieber, the most famous boy? on earth, followed me on twitter, but yeah it doesn't make me more of a person. I just feel a need to random mention haha.
Another at least, this blogging thing exercises my mind right now. I do read books too and often go to my favorite bookstore around here and feast on all their open books reading these tweeny books with fancy pastel covers *grins* aka "teenage romance fiction". Sometimes I go dogwalking, but our dog is really really very snobbish barking on every dog she sees. She even tries to bite those people who find her cute and then approach her. I often feel that she has some kind of personal issues. A real bitch eh?
So there, see? I tend to over introduce for some reason. I've gone from talking about a youth craze to becoming a bum to Facebook radiation to Justin Bieber to books and ended up with my troubled dog.
He had no idea. In that one day I walked towards him, I set foot on my next prey.
His smell that reeks innocent goodness aggressively numbing my senses, in a manner I've never felt before.
This ungodly hunger, the thought of thousand things I can do to hurt him. I want, to slowly, passionately rip his skin respectfully tear every part of him, bathe in his blood for my youth and lay him on the fire of my vindication.
Like a psychopath's frenzy The detail of his misery imbued in my mind.
For he was the chosen retribution, Too fine for my own personal salvation.
Under these sheets, you were hovering
tightly around my body.
Burying your head
and smelling the grease in my hair,
lazy arms entwined over my breasts.
All of you pressed against my back
as if I were your muse or lover.
I was more than a stone, good as statue.
These displays weren't all too unfamiliar.
I've traipsed to others' bodies before
Unashamed, unfazed of indignity.
No feelings, for nobody else.
To no one, but my beautiful wretched self
I see myself embraced in lust
or love, I couldn't be sure of. I did not, never cared.
Empty, cold, hollowed with my self-damnation.
Not even for lust
Not even for sin.
I watch your eyes
beg for something,
anything.
But
kissing you,
fucking you,
Yes, and I'm almost almost done, just a little more tinkering around here and this will do. I spent almost two days working on this new blog.
This space will take much, well mostly, my more personal accounts. Sometimes I go haywire and when I do I end up writing some random rants or whines about whatever. Sometimes I go way more opinionated than usual and tries to get involve and express my sentiments on some issues most especially those social and political ones. I've gone more political recently because there was too much pressure around-that you have to be aware of the national issues to be labeled as a 'responsible' citizen or a 'useful' member of the youth. The youth now has become more aggressive and brave on voicing out their opinions but not being much accountable for everything they say. Just the perks are, they can say whatever they want, rant, even talkshit or trash talk other people or whoever celebrity or political persona. It's their choice if they do it logically or illogically, reasonably or go way overboard. However they want to put it. The thing is, at least, you're INVOLVED. But yeah if you do that, throw a more sensible, if not smart,judgement.
Most of the times, blogging saves me from bumming that has aready become a mortal sin because it's too much. I just realize that vacations increase the number of idle people like me. This also worsens the financial crisis because I tend to use the computer for countless hours. Talk about radiation and electric bill go double. Facebook would increase the probability of people to get cancer because of an everyday long exposure in front the screen. Just a theory. But I just learned that radiation from computers actually adds to your aging. So that's why I look more on twenties now? It even gets better if you have all these soda and junkies you put on your mouth everyday. So much for my healthy lifestyle eh?
Well at least, Justin Bieber, the most famous boy? on earth, followed me on twitter, but yeah it doesn't make me more of a person. I just feel a need to random mention haha.
Another at least, this blogging thing exercises my mind right now. I do read books too and often go to my favorite bookstore around here and feast on all their open books reading these tweeny books with fancy pastel covers *grins* aka "teenage romance fiction". Sometimes I go dogwalking, but our dog is really really very snobbish barking on every dog she sees. She even tries to bite those people who find her cute and then approach her. I often feel that she has some kind of personal issues. A real bitch eh?
So there, see? I tend to over introduce for some reason. I've gone from talking about a youth craze to becoming a bum to Facebook radiation to Justin Bieber to books and ended up with my troubled dog.
I'm Gixx. I started this blog two years ago when I tried to go about my insanity through documenting my musings in the night. I am now 21, graduate, again studying in law school, and I am still floating and fleeting from my existence and unconventional personality and way of living.
I maintain at least five websites but this is where I write about anything random. I read a lot of books. I love travel and I'm a sucker for zeal and wisdom.
I like to take risks. And that's where I learn. Then I write.
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